Possibilities

Sunday morning, a day to sleep in and my brain wakes me up at 5:30 am, just firing away with a thousand thoughts a minute.

So what made me happy about this, losing my chance to sleep in? Possibilities!

I'm not even sure which was the first thought, so many of my future possibilities just popping up one after the other.
Should we:
- relocate to a new city
- have kids
- stay where we are and do major renovations
- buy a new house
- vacation in Morocco, France, the Canadian east coast
Should I:
- plan a recital for myself
- start my own company
- go back to school part time
- push ahead in my musical/theatrical career

And many, many more. These are just the more prominent thoughts.

I'm great with ideas, but when I have so many potentials floating around in my head, it's very hard to make a choice, much less sleep.

It's not just the initial ideas floating around in here this morning, my mind has taken over and has started the initial planning for each one; picking a space and musical selections for a recital, designing a nursery and choosing names, making an itinerary of everything to see and do on each of the vacation options, figuring out which city would be great for relocation, planning my new business and all of the steps required.

And none of these thoughts are linear, my mind jumps from one to the other and back again, while I try to fall back asleep, like a giant stew of Sarah-thoughts all swirling around in a hot mess. Pretty intense for 5:30 on a Sunday morning.

So what to do with all of these thoughts? Let them stress me out and exhaust me before my day has even begun, or be amazed by the unlimited possibilities out there for my present and future self?

I am truly blessed, not because I have these thoughts, but because each and every one of them is an actual possibility. I could consciously decide to do each of those things and see them to fruition. That's how amazing my life is and will continue to be.

So the question, which is a little too much for my busy brain this morning, is what do I want to do? At some point I have to make decisions and chose a direction. Although at the moment, even before bright on an early Sunday morning, I prefer to leave all of these options up to God and see where the road takes me.

And with that I shall try and close my eyes and see if my dreams will continue to add to the possibilities?

Good morning, sweet dreams!

With Love
~sarah~

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