I have only had food aversions up until recently, but then this past Thursday night while lying in bed with Ian reading, I sat up and said, "Do we have any candy? What about the candy we were eating a couple of days ago? Is there any candy left? I really want some candy? Do you think we have candy?". Then I jumped out of bed and ran downstairs wearing nothing but a sports bra, rifled through the cupboards, FOUND some candy, ran back upstairs with hands full exclaiming, "THIS is why I never throw anything out!". I then proceeded to chow down on some chewy juice berries, creamy caramels and rockets.
When I was finished eating and had put the candy away, I looked at Ian, who had not said anything since I had started asking about the candy, and then I said very calmly and innocently, "I think I just had my first craving?".
Ian just looked at me and broke out in absolute hysterical laughter.
Oops ;)
One more of the wonders of pregnancy.
With love,
~sarah~
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Monday, June 18, 2012
Second Trimester
Well after reading the posts I wrote in my first trimester I thought I should post a little update to let you know...I'm OKAY! I considered not posting some of those, I sound a little crazy in them! No kidding with the mood swings. I read my words, I remember writing them, and they feel like they were a LONG time ago.
So my update, other than the fact this baby does NOT like cake (only thing that has really made me barf or even feel like barfing), my mild nausea was all I really got. My belly finally "popped" about 2 weeks ago, and none of my pants fit, other than sweats. I got a headache today, about the second I've had with this pregnancy and I suspect it's due to dehydration, I don't drink as much water as I should. I know, I'm getting better, I just have to work on it. (taking a sip right now)
Needless to say compared to many mommies-to-be I have had it EASY and for this I am truly grateful. Yes, the crazy person in the first trimester was probably one of my pregnancy symptoms, but I've always been a little nuts.
So lots to update, but I'll try and keep it short. We have a midwife, actually midwives, we have a 2 midwife team. I'm very excited about this and Ian is very supportive in my hope and attempt to have a natural birth. When we had our first appointment with them we got to listen to the heartbeat. Very cool!
We had our initial testing done last week where we got to do an ultrasound and see little TNG (The Next Generation). It was probably the most unbelievable and amazing experience of my life. We have a little picture from the ultrasound and it's just so wonderful. It's kind of surreal.
Everyone knows now, which has totally fixed a lot of my craziness, no more lying. Family, friends, work...everyone! :) Thank goodness, that for me was probably the worst side-effect of pregnancy. I understand the reasons for keeping it quiet, but it really made me into a crazier person than I already am!
Other than that there's nothing really new. We're preparing for having a little one in the house in 6 months...6 MONTHS! :) We're both very excited and happy and blessed.
With love,
~sarah~
So my update, other than the fact this baby does NOT like cake (only thing that has really made me barf or even feel like barfing), my mild nausea was all I really got. My belly finally "popped" about 2 weeks ago, and none of my pants fit, other than sweats. I got a headache today, about the second I've had with this pregnancy and I suspect it's due to dehydration, I don't drink as much water as I should. I know, I'm getting better, I just have to work on it. (taking a sip right now)
Needless to say compared to many mommies-to-be I have had it EASY and for this I am truly grateful. Yes, the crazy person in the first trimester was probably one of my pregnancy symptoms, but I've always been a little nuts.
So lots to update, but I'll try and keep it short. We have a midwife, actually midwives, we have a 2 midwife team. I'm very excited about this and Ian is very supportive in my hope and attempt to have a natural birth. When we had our first appointment with them we got to listen to the heartbeat. Very cool!
We had our initial testing done last week where we got to do an ultrasound and see little TNG (The Next Generation). It was probably the most unbelievable and amazing experience of my life. We have a little picture from the ultrasound and it's just so wonderful. It's kind of surreal.
Everyone knows now, which has totally fixed a lot of my craziness, no more lying. Family, friends, work...everyone! :) Thank goodness, that for me was probably the worst side-effect of pregnancy. I understand the reasons for keeping it quiet, but it really made me into a crazier person than I already am!
Other than that there's nothing really new. We're preparing for having a little one in the house in 6 months...6 MONTHS! :) We're both very excited and happy and blessed.
With love,
~sarah~
A step in the positive direction
Thursday, May 17, 2012 (end of week 9)
They weren't kidding when they talk about mood swings during pregnancy! I might not have morning sickness or major cravings or any of that yet, but zee mood zwings...zey are OUT OF CONTROL!
I've always been an up an down kinda gal. Feeling the highest highs and crying the biggest tears, but this had got me completely discombobulated. I'm trying to make decisions and plan for our future and since I'm not telling the rest of the world about TNG (the baby...re: The Next Generation) for at least another 2 weeks, I feel like I'm lying to everyone, and I hate lying. Which has got me feeling down right horrible all of the time.
The mild nausea doesn't help, as I've mentioned before, I associate nausea with a gut feeling that something is wrong, so one of my decision making gauges is off and has thrown me for a total loop.
How am I supposed to make decisions in my career and for my future when I can't trust my own feelings, my decisions or my reactions to anything? Heck, maybe I don't even really want to make a change, and it's this crazy roller coaster that's starting the decision making process for me?
So add a huge dose of wacky emotions to the whole pot and I'm feeling almost constantly nauseous and miserable with tears plaguing my evenings.
Me, the girl who thinks of herself as Miss Suzie-Sunshine, Pollyanna, Mary Poppins, feeling horrible and miserable all the time. I'm just completely out of my element.
So this morning I am making a concerted effort to do and think and say positive things. I am going to think gratitude. I am going to turn my frown upside-down. If I feel like crying for the sake of crying, by all means, I'll let it out. But when there's something substantial driving it I'm going to work on turning the thoughts and feelings towards the upside.
Negative thoughts into positive thoughts. Questioning why into thankful gratitude. Worry and stress into breathing and peace. It does not feel like an easy task at the moment, the further down a dark path you travel, the further you have to walk back, but I know that the first part is taking a step in a positive direction :)
So, come on feet, here we goooooo... :)
With Love
~sarah~
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They weren't kidding when they talk about mood swings during pregnancy! I might not have morning sickness or major cravings or any of that yet, but zee mood zwings...zey are OUT OF CONTROL!
I've always been an up an down kinda gal. Feeling the highest highs and crying the biggest tears, but this had got me completely discombobulated. I'm trying to make decisions and plan for our future and since I'm not telling the rest of the world about TNG (the baby...re: The Next Generation) for at least another 2 weeks, I feel like I'm lying to everyone, and I hate lying. Which has got me feeling down right horrible all of the time.
The mild nausea doesn't help, as I've mentioned before, I associate nausea with a gut feeling that something is wrong, so one of my decision making gauges is off and has thrown me for a total loop.
How am I supposed to make decisions in my career and for my future when I can't trust my own feelings, my decisions or my reactions to anything? Heck, maybe I don't even really want to make a change, and it's this crazy roller coaster that's starting the decision making process for me?
So add a huge dose of wacky emotions to the whole pot and I'm feeling almost constantly nauseous and miserable with tears plaguing my evenings.
Me, the girl who thinks of herself as Miss Suzie-Sunshine, Pollyanna, Mary Poppins, feeling horrible and miserable all the time. I'm just completely out of my element.
So this morning I am making a concerted effort to do and think and say positive things. I am going to think gratitude. I am going to turn my frown upside-down. If I feel like crying for the sake of crying, by all means, I'll let it out. But when there's something substantial driving it I'm going to work on turning the thoughts and feelings towards the upside.
Negative thoughts into positive thoughts. Questioning why into thankful gratitude. Worry and stress into breathing and peace. It does not feel like an easy task at the moment, the further down a dark path you travel, the further you have to walk back, but I know that the first part is taking a step in a positive direction :)
So, come on feet, here we goooooo... :)
With Love
~sarah~
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Strangers sharing
Thursday, May 3rd (week 7)
Today was a good day. Very little nausea and only a little of what I call "baby awareness" feeling. It's not quite cramping, but sort of a phantom pain in my abdomen. Like the feeling I get right before my period starts, before I get any cramps. At first it was a little scary, I mentioned it to the doctor and she said as long as there's no blood and no PAIN, I am fine.
Which leads me to the blood issue. I'm RH negative. Bleeding for me causes mild complications. If I get any spotting or a hard impact to my stomach I need to go straight to the hospital emergency room to get a needle. Basically I need a vaccine against the baby's blood in case it's RH positive. I'm aware that I'm thinking about it and trying not to stress about it, but it is worrisome. I haven't told anyone at work, and I won't be for at least another month (5 weeks if I can manage it). If something urgent were to happen I kind of just have to be like "okay, sorry, I gotta leave now". Which would raise all sorts of suspicions and concerns. Anywho...I'm trying not to worry about it.
It's interesting, we have a pregnant woman at work, tomorrow is her last day, and it's funny, now that I'm pregnant I realize that one of the only things we talk to her about is pregnancy. Seriously, THAT's what I have to look forward to. No longer talking about me, but talking only about what's happening to my body and the baby growing inside me. Funny enough we told one of the car dealers we were speaking with that we were pregnant, and he went on and on about his wife's labour and how she broke a stirrup and how Ian HAS to be in the room and be a part of everything or he'll regret it, etc. And I realized how AWKWARD being pregnant could get. Seriously, we've never met his wife but I know all about her delivery, seriously, that's weird. But honestly it's also kind of nice too...I mean, people want to share their wonderful stories, the most important event in their lives with each other. It really is something to bond over (with complete strangers).
Anyways, it was a really good day today. And tomorrow I am 7 weeks pregnant (with the understanding that I wasn't pregnant at all for the first two weeks. Seriously, pregnancy counting is weird).
Today was a good day. Very little nausea and only a little of what I call "baby awareness" feeling. It's not quite cramping, but sort of a phantom pain in my abdomen. Like the feeling I get right before my period starts, before I get any cramps. At first it was a little scary, I mentioned it to the doctor and she said as long as there's no blood and no PAIN, I am fine.
Which leads me to the blood issue. I'm RH negative. Bleeding for me causes mild complications. If I get any spotting or a hard impact to my stomach I need to go straight to the hospital emergency room to get a needle. Basically I need a vaccine against the baby's blood in case it's RH positive. I'm aware that I'm thinking about it and trying not to stress about it, but it is worrisome. I haven't told anyone at work, and I won't be for at least another month (5 weeks if I can manage it). If something urgent were to happen I kind of just have to be like "okay, sorry, I gotta leave now". Which would raise all sorts of suspicions and concerns. Anywho...I'm trying not to worry about it.
It's interesting, we have a pregnant woman at work, tomorrow is her last day, and it's funny, now that I'm pregnant I realize that one of the only things we talk to her about is pregnancy. Seriously, THAT's what I have to look forward to. No longer talking about me, but talking only about what's happening to my body and the baby growing inside me. Funny enough we told one of the car dealers we were speaking with that we were pregnant, and he went on and on about his wife's labour and how she broke a stirrup and how Ian HAS to be in the room and be a part of everything or he'll regret it, etc. And I realized how AWKWARD being pregnant could get. Seriously, we've never met his wife but I know all about her delivery, seriously, that's weird. But honestly it's also kind of nice too...I mean, people want to share their wonderful stories, the most important event in their lives with each other. It really is something to bond over (with complete strangers).
Anyways, it was a really good day today. And tomorrow I am 7 weeks pregnant (with the understanding that I wasn't pregnant at all for the first two weeks. Seriously, pregnancy counting is weird).
Nausea
May 2, 2012 (week 7)
So no real "morning sickness" yet. I wake up feeling fine. No soda crackers or ginger ale for when I wake up. But I do get what I will clasify as mild nausea. A slight distaste for certain food. However, I have always had a strong stomach, a voracious appetite and a great love of food, so...so far so good. The "idea" of certain food makes me not want it, but once I start eating it, it seems to get better, manageable. Although I've started adding soda crackers to some of my meals, it makes my lunch soup bareable.
I have never had a "shut off switch" when I'm eating. You know, that feeling you get when you're full and your brain says stop? Ya, not me. Sometimes I don't feel the full and other times I don't hear a stop. Either way, I've always been able to "just keep eating". If pregnancy has given me anything, I've started both feeling full AND hearing the stop. It's pretty neat. This is something I'd like to carry on after pregnancy, now that I can recognize the feeling (although sometimes it is accompanied by nausea). Hopefully, I'll get more particular about what I want to eat, instead of "just everything".
Currently, other than some random, mild nausea and mildly achy breasts (they were much worse last week) I often don't "feel" pregnant. Not that I want any discomfort or major outward signs yet, but it would be nice to have more of a pregnant feeling.
Anywho...that's it for now. Surely things will change drastically again tomorrow ;)
So no real "morning sickness" yet. I wake up feeling fine. No soda crackers or ginger ale for when I wake up. But I do get what I will clasify as mild nausea. A slight distaste for certain food. However, I have always had a strong stomach, a voracious appetite and a great love of food, so...so far so good. The "idea" of certain food makes me not want it, but once I start eating it, it seems to get better, manageable. Although I've started adding soda crackers to some of my meals, it makes my lunch soup bareable.
I have never had a "shut off switch" when I'm eating. You know, that feeling you get when you're full and your brain says stop? Ya, not me. Sometimes I don't feel the full and other times I don't hear a stop. Either way, I've always been able to "just keep eating". If pregnancy has given me anything, I've started both feeling full AND hearing the stop. It's pretty neat. This is something I'd like to carry on after pregnancy, now that I can recognize the feeling (although sometimes it is accompanied by nausea). Hopefully, I'll get more particular about what I want to eat, instead of "just everything".
Currently, other than some random, mild nausea and mildly achy breasts (they were much worse last week) I often don't "feel" pregnant. Not that I want any discomfort or major outward signs yet, but it would be nice to have more of a pregnant feeling.
Anywho...that's it for now. Surely things will change drastically again tomorrow ;)
Feeling Overwhelmed
Wednesday, May 2, 2012 (week 7)
Not about the baby so much, but just about life. I'm not unhappy, but I think that when life steps up and throws me choices to make and things to consider, it all seems so much MORE than what it used to be. It doesn't help that I'm feeling midly nauseous. I think I use nausea as a "sign" in my non-pregnant life, so when I'm feeling nauseous at the same time as I'm making a decision, it turns me off whatever I'm thinking about.
However, I will spend the rest of the day changing my overwhelmed nauseous energy, into excited nauseous energy. I will fill it full of gratitude. I am grateful for being blessed with pregnancy. I am grateful for having these options available to me. I am grateful to be healthy. I am grateful that I have a wonderful husband who helps me think through my options, and offers helpful support and opinions.
This is my first "baby" post that I'm writing, but won't be actually posting until we've announced it to the world. I was hoping to start blogging sooner, to share my first trimester pregnancy thoughts and feelings for other mothers, however, this is the first time I've sat down to put thoughts to paper. I'm hoping to blog many, many more times to share this wonderful journey.
Not about the baby so much, but just about life. I'm not unhappy, but I think that when life steps up and throws me choices to make and things to consider, it all seems so much MORE than what it used to be. It doesn't help that I'm feeling midly nauseous. I think I use nausea as a "sign" in my non-pregnant life, so when I'm feeling nauseous at the same time as I'm making a decision, it turns me off whatever I'm thinking about.
However, I will spend the rest of the day changing my overwhelmed nauseous energy, into excited nauseous energy. I will fill it full of gratitude. I am grateful for being blessed with pregnancy. I am grateful for having these options available to me. I am grateful to be healthy. I am grateful that I have a wonderful husband who helps me think through my options, and offers helpful support and opinions.
This is my first "baby" post that I'm writing, but won't be actually posting until we've announced it to the world. I was hoping to start blogging sooner, to share my first trimester pregnancy thoughts and feelings for other mothers, however, this is the first time I've sat down to put thoughts to paper. I'm hoping to blog many, many more times to share this wonderful journey.
We're Pregnant!
So...my it made me happy thing for a couple of months now has been that we're expecting. I have been blogging, only they've been hidden until now because we hadn't told everyone. I will be posting a couple of blogs that have been in "draft" status, so for those of you (2?) who are signed up for notifications...you're about to get bombarded!
I've dated all of my previous posts because the posting date will throw off the timeline a little.
Yes, I plan to blog about my pregnancy. I find it very helpful to read what other women are going through, and who knows, maybe something I share can help someone else.
Mostly this blog is about what made me happy...and this pregnancy? It is making me VERY happy! :)
With Love
~sarah~
I've dated all of my previous posts because the posting date will throw off the timeline a little.
Yes, I plan to blog about my pregnancy. I find it very helpful to read what other women are going through, and who knows, maybe something I share can help someone else.
Mostly this blog is about what made me happy...and this pregnancy? It is making me VERY happy! :)
With Love
~sarah~
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