Thursday, May 3rd (week 7)
Today was a good day. Very little nausea and only a little of what I call "baby awareness" feeling. It's not quite cramping, but sort of a phantom pain in my abdomen. Like the feeling I get right before my period starts, before I get any cramps. At first it was a little scary, I mentioned it to the doctor and she said as long as there's no blood and no PAIN, I am fine.
Which leads me to the blood issue. I'm RH negative. Bleeding for me causes mild complications. If I get any spotting or a hard impact to my stomach I need to go straight to the hospital emergency room to get a needle. Basically I need a vaccine against the baby's blood in case it's RH positive. I'm aware that I'm thinking about it and trying not to stress about it, but it is worrisome. I haven't told anyone at work, and I won't be for at least another month (5 weeks if I can manage it). If something urgent were to happen I kind of just have to be like "okay, sorry, I gotta leave now". Which would raise all sorts of suspicions and concerns. Anywho...I'm trying not to worry about it.
It's interesting, we have a pregnant woman at work, tomorrow is her last day, and it's funny, now that I'm pregnant I realize that one of the only things we talk to her about is pregnancy. Seriously, THAT's what I have to look forward to. No longer talking about me, but talking only about what's happening to my body and the baby growing inside me. Funny enough we told one of the car dealers we were speaking with that we were pregnant, and he went on and on about his wife's labour and how she broke a stirrup and how Ian HAS to be in the room and be a part of everything or he'll regret it, etc. And I realized how AWKWARD being pregnant could get. Seriously, we've never met his wife but I know all about her delivery, seriously, that's weird. But honestly it's also kind of nice too...I mean, people want to share their wonderful stories, the most important event in their lives with each other. It really is something to bond over (with complete strangers).
Anyways, it was a really good day today. And tomorrow I am 7 weeks pregnant (with the understanding that I wasn't pregnant at all for the first two weeks. Seriously, pregnancy counting is weird).
Monday, June 18, 2012
Nausea
May 2, 2012 (week 7)
So no real "morning sickness" yet. I wake up feeling fine. No soda crackers or ginger ale for when I wake up. But I do get what I will clasify as mild nausea. A slight distaste for certain food. However, I have always had a strong stomach, a voracious appetite and a great love of food, so...so far so good. The "idea" of certain food makes me not want it, but once I start eating it, it seems to get better, manageable. Although I've started adding soda crackers to some of my meals, it makes my lunch soup bareable.
I have never had a "shut off switch" when I'm eating. You know, that feeling you get when you're full and your brain says stop? Ya, not me. Sometimes I don't feel the full and other times I don't hear a stop. Either way, I've always been able to "just keep eating". If pregnancy has given me anything, I've started both feeling full AND hearing the stop. It's pretty neat. This is something I'd like to carry on after pregnancy, now that I can recognize the feeling (although sometimes it is accompanied by nausea). Hopefully, I'll get more particular about what I want to eat, instead of "just everything".
Currently, other than some random, mild nausea and mildly achy breasts (they were much worse last week) I often don't "feel" pregnant. Not that I want any discomfort or major outward signs yet, but it would be nice to have more of a pregnant feeling.
Anywho...that's it for now. Surely things will change drastically again tomorrow ;)
So no real "morning sickness" yet. I wake up feeling fine. No soda crackers or ginger ale for when I wake up. But I do get what I will clasify as mild nausea. A slight distaste for certain food. However, I have always had a strong stomach, a voracious appetite and a great love of food, so...so far so good. The "idea" of certain food makes me not want it, but once I start eating it, it seems to get better, manageable. Although I've started adding soda crackers to some of my meals, it makes my lunch soup bareable.
I have never had a "shut off switch" when I'm eating. You know, that feeling you get when you're full and your brain says stop? Ya, not me. Sometimes I don't feel the full and other times I don't hear a stop. Either way, I've always been able to "just keep eating". If pregnancy has given me anything, I've started both feeling full AND hearing the stop. It's pretty neat. This is something I'd like to carry on after pregnancy, now that I can recognize the feeling (although sometimes it is accompanied by nausea). Hopefully, I'll get more particular about what I want to eat, instead of "just everything".
Currently, other than some random, mild nausea and mildly achy breasts (they were much worse last week) I often don't "feel" pregnant. Not that I want any discomfort or major outward signs yet, but it would be nice to have more of a pregnant feeling.
Anywho...that's it for now. Surely things will change drastically again tomorrow ;)
Feeling Overwhelmed
Wednesday, May 2, 2012 (week 7)
Not about the baby so much, but just about life. I'm not unhappy, but I think that when life steps up and throws me choices to make and things to consider, it all seems so much MORE than what it used to be. It doesn't help that I'm feeling midly nauseous. I think I use nausea as a "sign" in my non-pregnant life, so when I'm feeling nauseous at the same time as I'm making a decision, it turns me off whatever I'm thinking about.
However, I will spend the rest of the day changing my overwhelmed nauseous energy, into excited nauseous energy. I will fill it full of gratitude. I am grateful for being blessed with pregnancy. I am grateful for having these options available to me. I am grateful to be healthy. I am grateful that I have a wonderful husband who helps me think through my options, and offers helpful support and opinions.
This is my first "baby" post that I'm writing, but won't be actually posting until we've announced it to the world. I was hoping to start blogging sooner, to share my first trimester pregnancy thoughts and feelings for other mothers, however, this is the first time I've sat down to put thoughts to paper. I'm hoping to blog many, many more times to share this wonderful journey.
Not about the baby so much, but just about life. I'm not unhappy, but I think that when life steps up and throws me choices to make and things to consider, it all seems so much MORE than what it used to be. It doesn't help that I'm feeling midly nauseous. I think I use nausea as a "sign" in my non-pregnant life, so when I'm feeling nauseous at the same time as I'm making a decision, it turns me off whatever I'm thinking about.
However, I will spend the rest of the day changing my overwhelmed nauseous energy, into excited nauseous energy. I will fill it full of gratitude. I am grateful for being blessed with pregnancy. I am grateful for having these options available to me. I am grateful to be healthy. I am grateful that I have a wonderful husband who helps me think through my options, and offers helpful support and opinions.
This is my first "baby" post that I'm writing, but won't be actually posting until we've announced it to the world. I was hoping to start blogging sooner, to share my first trimester pregnancy thoughts and feelings for other mothers, however, this is the first time I've sat down to put thoughts to paper. I'm hoping to blog many, many more times to share this wonderful journey.
We're Pregnant!
So...my it made me happy thing for a couple of months now has been that we're expecting. I have been blogging, only they've been hidden until now because we hadn't told everyone. I will be posting a couple of blogs that have been in "draft" status, so for those of you (2?) who are signed up for notifications...you're about to get bombarded!
I've dated all of my previous posts because the posting date will throw off the timeline a little.
Yes, I plan to blog about my pregnancy. I find it very helpful to read what other women are going through, and who knows, maybe something I share can help someone else.
Mostly this blog is about what made me happy...and this pregnancy? It is making me VERY happy! :)
With Love
~sarah~
I've dated all of my previous posts because the posting date will throw off the timeline a little.
Yes, I plan to blog about my pregnancy. I find it very helpful to read what other women are going through, and who knows, maybe something I share can help someone else.
Mostly this blog is about what made me happy...and this pregnancy? It is making me VERY happy! :)
With Love
~sarah~
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Possibilities
Sunday morning, a day to sleep in and my brain wakes me up at 5:30 am, just firing away with a thousand thoughts a minute.
So what made me happy about this, losing my chance to sleep in? Possibilities!
I'm not even sure which was the first thought, so many of my future possibilities just popping up one after the other.
Should we:
- relocate to a new city
- have kids
- stay where we are and do major renovations
- buy a new house
- vacation in Morocco, France, the Canadian east coast
Should I:
- plan a recital for myself
- start my own company
- go back to school part time
- push ahead in my musical/theatrical career
And many, many more. These are just the more prominent thoughts.
I'm great with ideas, but when I have so many potentials floating around in my head, it's very hard to make a choice, much less sleep.
It's not just the initial ideas floating around in here this morning, my mind has taken over and has started the initial planning for each one; picking a space and musical selections for a recital, designing a nursery and choosing names, making an itinerary of everything to see and do on each of the vacation options, figuring out which city would be great for relocation, planning my new business and all of the steps required.
And none of these thoughts are linear, my mind jumps from one to the other and back again, while I try to fall back asleep, like a giant stew of Sarah-thoughts all swirling around in a hot mess. Pretty intense for 5:30 on a Sunday morning.
So what to do with all of these thoughts? Let them stress me out and exhaust me before my day has even begun, or be amazed by the unlimited possibilities out there for my present and future self?
I am truly blessed, not because I have these thoughts, but because each and every one of them is an actual possibility. I could consciously decide to do each of those things and see them to fruition. That's how amazing my life is and will continue to be.
So the question, which is a little too much for my busy brain this morning, is what do I want to do? At some point I have to make decisions and chose a direction. Although at the moment, even before bright on an early Sunday morning, I prefer to leave all of these options up to God and see where the road takes me.
And with that I shall try and close my eyes and see if my dreams will continue to add to the possibilities?
Good morning, sweet dreams!
With Love
~sarah~
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So what made me happy about this, losing my chance to sleep in? Possibilities!
I'm not even sure which was the first thought, so many of my future possibilities just popping up one after the other.
Should we:
- relocate to a new city
- have kids
- stay where we are and do major renovations
- buy a new house
- vacation in Morocco, France, the Canadian east coast
Should I:
- plan a recital for myself
- start my own company
- go back to school part time
- push ahead in my musical/theatrical career
And many, many more. These are just the more prominent thoughts.
I'm great with ideas, but when I have so many potentials floating around in my head, it's very hard to make a choice, much less sleep.
It's not just the initial ideas floating around in here this morning, my mind has taken over and has started the initial planning for each one; picking a space and musical selections for a recital, designing a nursery and choosing names, making an itinerary of everything to see and do on each of the vacation options, figuring out which city would be great for relocation, planning my new business and all of the steps required.
And none of these thoughts are linear, my mind jumps from one to the other and back again, while I try to fall back asleep, like a giant stew of Sarah-thoughts all swirling around in a hot mess. Pretty intense for 5:30 on a Sunday morning.
So what to do with all of these thoughts? Let them stress me out and exhaust me before my day has even begun, or be amazed by the unlimited possibilities out there for my present and future self?
I am truly blessed, not because I have these thoughts, but because each and every one of them is an actual possibility. I could consciously decide to do each of those things and see them to fruition. That's how amazing my life is and will continue to be.
So the question, which is a little too much for my busy brain this morning, is what do I want to do? At some point I have to make decisions and chose a direction. Although at the moment, even before bright on an early Sunday morning, I prefer to leave all of these options up to God and see where the road takes me.
And with that I shall try and close my eyes and see if my dreams will continue to add to the possibilities?
Good morning, sweet dreams!
With Love
~sarah~
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Location:Jackson Ct,Kanata,Canada
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Just Scream!
Yesterday morning I got up, even though all I wanted to do was sleep in, due to exhaustion of being at the theatre every night this week. I had an audition.
It was an open call, and I had a show again later in the evening. I was worried there would be a long wait and I wanted to get there early and I already felt like I was running behind.
I have never auditioned for camera work before. I have seldom auditioned where a prepare song or piece wasn't required or where I wouldn't be learning a dance to perform. I was nervous and tired and excited all rolled up into a tight little ball.
When I arrived at the audition, there was only one person in front of me...and my stress level dropped. Then when I walked into the audition room everyone was nice and easy going...AND I got to quickly meet @suzemuze in person (I love meeting the Twitter world IRL) and my anxiety dropped even more.
I felt like the audition went well. I read, was interrupted by a street sweeper, read again, then received some direction and read again.
Then the best part, at the end of the audition they asked me to scream. Screaming isn't something I wanted to rehearse ahead of time. I wasn't necessarily "prepared" to scream. So I closed my eyes and wondered how I was going to do it. Then I opened my eyes back up, and SCREEEEAMED!!!!!
It. Felt. AWESOME!!! :) Partway through the scream I realized I was REALLY scared and not audition scared, but the fear that would cause me to scream like that, is the fear that I felt.
Yesterday was a very happy day! :)
With Love
~sarah~
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It was an open call, and I had a show again later in the evening. I was worried there would be a long wait and I wanted to get there early and I already felt like I was running behind.
I have never auditioned for camera work before. I have seldom auditioned where a prepare song or piece wasn't required or where I wouldn't be learning a dance to perform. I was nervous and tired and excited all rolled up into a tight little ball.
When I arrived at the audition, there was only one person in front of me...and my stress level dropped. Then when I walked into the audition room everyone was nice and easy going...AND I got to quickly meet @suzemuze in person (I love meeting the Twitter world IRL) and my anxiety dropped even more.
I felt like the audition went well. I read, was interrupted by a street sweeper, read again, then received some direction and read again.
Then the best part, at the end of the audition they asked me to scream. Screaming isn't something I wanted to rehearse ahead of time. I wasn't necessarily "prepared" to scream. So I closed my eyes and wondered how I was going to do it. Then I opened my eyes back up, and SCREEEEAMED!!!!!
It. Felt. AWESOME!!! :) Partway through the scream I realized I was REALLY scared and not audition scared, but the fear that would cause me to scream like that, is the fear that I felt.
Yesterday was a very happy day! :)
With Love
~sarah~
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Location:Centrum Blvd,Ottawa,Canada
92 Decibels
(back for good?)
I've been performing all week at the Shenkman Arts Centre in a show called Journey, which is the title of this year's Yoriko's Shooting Stars. It's a wonderful experience each year, spending time with the other vocal students, preparing a wonderful show and getting an opportunity to work on the stage again.
There has been a lot of happiness for me throughout this production, starting first from learning and adding a wonderful new song to my repertoire in less than a month, which I didn't know I could do, to the wonderful feedback from cast and audiences alike on the song itself, to finally tonight.
For the past two nights one of the staff at the Shenkman Arts Centre has been checking the SPL (Sound Pressure Level) of our show. Last night's reading for the finale was 96.7 decibels (apparently an average rock concert checks in at 95), and we do it without mics or amps. But what made me extremely happy is finding out that my voice during my solo tonight hit 92 decibels un-mic'd :) :) :) I'm just tickled pink about that. I'm going to do research about it tomorrow since it's all new to me.
And I'm already working on tomorrow's blog (about something that also happened today...sooo much to be happy about!)
GOODNIGHT!
With Love
~sarah~
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I've been performing all week at the Shenkman Arts Centre in a show called Journey, which is the title of this year's Yoriko's Shooting Stars. It's a wonderful experience each year, spending time with the other vocal students, preparing a wonderful show and getting an opportunity to work on the stage again.
There has been a lot of happiness for me throughout this production, starting first from learning and adding a wonderful new song to my repertoire in less than a month, which I didn't know I could do, to the wonderful feedback from cast and audiences alike on the song itself, to finally tonight.
For the past two nights one of the staff at the Shenkman Arts Centre has been checking the SPL (Sound Pressure Level) of our show. Last night's reading for the finale was 96.7 decibels (apparently an average rock concert checks in at 95), and we do it without mics or amps. But what made me extremely happy is finding out that my voice during my solo tonight hit 92 decibels un-mic'd :) :) :) I'm just tickled pink about that. I'm going to do research about it tomorrow since it's all new to me.
And I'm already working on tomorrow's blog (about something that also happened today...sooo much to be happy about!)
GOODNIGHT!
With Love
~sarah~
Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone
Location:Jackson Ct,Kanata,Canada
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